Everyone has it but few talk about it. GRIEF. I am grieving this week. It’s unusual for me, and it’s felt throughout my body. A slowness… heaviness. Off and on, because it goes in waves. There is a rest in it… Slow – motion… A breath can be hard sometimes. You have to remember to breathe deeply when you grieve, because grief is very much in the lungs. The moldering heaviness in the lungs, as the vignette picture shows with the red color.

The Autumn Equinox was here down under this weekend, so it’s moving towards darker and cooler times here – the opposite for you with the Spring Equinox. You’re getting brighter and warmer, life is budding. I feel this shift in light wherever I am.

The strange thing is that I can’t put my finger on the cause. But you don’t have to know why you’re grieving. It is nevertheless important to take the time to grieve, otherwise grief is stored inside you and becomes a silent burden. Grief is something that cannot be skipped, but the path goes through grief. Sometimes it can be enough to rest under the covers and hold on, just accept.

Tomorrow is mom’s death anniversary, eight years since dear mom went up into the light in heaven and I miss her this week. Thinking of her a lot. All the good things she gave us children I remember with warmth and joy in my heart. The relationship was not easy, but I value very much all the good that she gave me. And I told her that before she died. Showed my love and respect. Even though we lived on different planets.

Then I have a break in book writing, and there is always an idle phase… Because my writing is absorbing and most other things disappear to focus fully on book writing. It’s been both hugely rewarding and positive, it will be my biggest and best book. So it has taken its toll!  

When you give and give, it’s easy not to notice that you’re depleting.

Not easy planning one’s time and where to be now either, because traveling has become complicated. Few international flights leave Perth, Western Australia, where I am since January 2020. The borders are closed since one year for foreigners, will not open until Christmas, maybe.

Strange times we live in now. I hope it gives room for re-evaluation of many things, and upgrading of good human values. Because there is a lot up to us now. Which many have understood, but many more need to take in.

I don’t usually share personal things, but I know that many people are now struggling with heavier emotions – and it’s important to give them space. The picture below shows how emotions show up in the body, where they are – and how important it is to make space for them and feel and manage them. Because we are strong emotional people!

I am also in mourning:

• all the suffering we have on earth.
• That everything is so uncertain now.
• That we cannot travel and see our loved ones.
• That I myself am so far away from my loved ones. Feeling lonely…
• That reason, wisdom, empathy and benevolence cannot prevail…
• That the responsible authorities completely ignore the most important protection of all: strengthening the immune system.
• That everything could have been handled differently and based on solid research – if people’s best interests were at the center.
• The more materialism and money rule, the harsher the world. What happens to human values…?

How are you doing? Please share in the comments below.

Love, light and good hope to us all! Tonight I light a candle for love and sorrow.

Dr. Sanna Ehdin

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